Updated: Jan 8
Cramping, aching, sharp, invisible, exhausting, stressful, lonely pain. Sound familiar? It did and still does for me too! Before I became the creator of Here's to Strength, I was a young, divorced, single mother in her 20's with a successful career managing 1800+ doctors in the government health industry. I was incredibly happy, funny, creative and most importantly in love with my role as a Mumma Bear. Growing up, I had a pretty confronting childhood, battled anxiety, weight issues, migraines and ovarian cysts but when I was 24, everything changed. Having just survived emotional, physical and sexual violence by my partner at the time, I couldn't sleep, laugh or function anymore and was left only a shell of who I used to be. Over time I started experiencing unknown and sudden widespread pain.
Literally every part of my mind, body and soul felt like it had been beaten up all over again. I can't recall exactly how many tests the doctors put me through, but the answer was always the same, "everything is normal, exercise and you'll feel better". I honestly wish I had a crystal ball that could have given me absolute direction because I spent years of my life devastated with how quickly my world was falling apart, trying to understand, find miracle treatments, using any medication thrown at me, and dealing with the strained relationships around me that didn't believe or know how to understand that my illness was real or what it actually meant. I was grieving.